Sunday, April 26, 2009

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I have been planning this Penang trip for so long and finally I am really going there with my friends! Yeah! So looking forward to it!

yeah...

By the way, I really hope you guys can really make up your mind soon, and don't try to put aeroplane! Hate it! Mean it when you say it.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

I want to get away from this for a few days!

Relaxing is important!

Being an adult, making big decision!

Growing up is hard! During this time of my life, I have to make a lot of decisions. Choosing the right path and also considering all the circumstances! Having all this issues and problems make it harder to decide! Please help! 
                                                                           
"I was in the drug store the other day trying to get a cold medication...
Not easy. There's an entire wall of products you need. You stand there going, Well, this one is quick acting but this is long lasting... Which is more important, the present or the future?"        -Jerry Seinfeld


Saturday, April 18, 2009

崩溃

我撑不下去了!
有谁能了解我?
有谁能听我倾诉?
有谁能帮帮我呢!
做一个决定有那么难吗?
其实,真的很难!

我哭了!
从来都不知道原来压力能对人有那么大的影响!

p/s please don't try to find someone to read for you!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

18th birthday

0000 hour

My sister called me from Sabah and wished me happy birthday. In the mean time, I received many sms-es from friends and relative. Thank you very much for the birthday wishes! Then I chatted with my sister for 1 hour till 0100 hour. Talk about things that happened for the past few days. Then I went to sleep because I am having breakfast with my friends in a 'dim sum' restaurant. 

0800 hour

Went to fetch my friends on the way to the restaurant. Then waited a while for the other friend. We ate for quite some time ( forgot the time ), then we paid the bill and headed to my friend house. Watched " Slumdog Millionaire " at my friend house. What a show. No wonder it won so many oscar awards. ( i know why this movie is a low cost movie. )  Watched till 1200 hour then went to the other friend house. 

1330 hour

Had lunch with my family. Had japanese food. Enjoyed the meal very much. Then when we finished our lunch, we went straight to home. It was 1500 and I felt very tired so I went to take a nap.

1715 hour

My younger sister went into my room and suddenly told me my was here and looking for me! What a surprise! Shocked! I just woke up and they are here already! Not even a phone call. ( Now I totally understand what surprises mean ) They bought a cake for me! Aww... So nice! [ THANKS GUYS ] I was very nervous and didnt expect any guest to come to my home! My home was not in the state of having guest! Messy messy! Sang the traditional birthday song in two versions. Blew the candles and cut the cake. Served it and enjoy it! Its a quick surprise, so they went back le. 

the gang that gave me the surprise!

the cake (sorry about the hand, bad photographer)

1930 hour

Had dinner, quick one. Then went to fetch my sister to tuition! Went to a complex to window shop! 2200 hour, went to fetch my sister. Then came back to home! OH YA! At 2145, my aunt called me to wish me happy birthday. Thanks aunty! 

Well that is basically most of it! A simple birthday for a simple person, with a touch of surprise!

Thanks for everything guys! It makes my birthday very meaningful! And most of all, many thanks for my mom and dad!

Another 15 minutes more to go!

Friday, April 10, 2009

Becoming a chauffeur

Yes, I got my driving license. Well, it's under probation. I am very happy because finally I can drive. But my dad will sit beside me when I drive. Still not enough experience! I can only drive when my little sister is going for a tuition or I need to fetch mom and dad to run some errands. Basically, it's like a chauffeur, driving people to where they want to go. Yaya, I know I need to practice more, "practice makes perfect" !

Hope I can drive like a experienced driver soon!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

OH! NOT AGAIN!

Adalah dimaklumkan bahawa permohonan anda tidak berjaya.

PETRONAS ingin mengucapkan Selamat Maju Jaya dalam bidang yang bakal anda ceburi.

Sekian, terima kasih. 

Went to the website to check! And this is what I found! 

I just can't take this anymore! Rejection is so hard to accept! Without explaining why I didn't get it. And they are trying to be nice! SELAMAT MAJU JAYA DALAM BIDANG YANG BAKAL ANDA CEBURI!

Oh! Trying to be nice. SAVE IT

JPA here I come, United Kingdom here I come, and I mean it!

So no more rejection please.

GOD please help me to get this scholarship! I really need this.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

I don't judge

People have their own life, they act differently and have their own style. I've been watching [ gossip girl ] lately, and I found out that there are many type of people out there. Watching all these series are not pointless and not wasting time. I realised that I don't actually judge PEOPLE ( only human, if you know what I mean ). But sometimes, ya, there will always have 'buts', so I do get angry with some people, but as time passes, I noticed that they are not that bad either! I will always be influenced by other people. So later I don't dislike them. I treat everyone equally. 

Do you know that judge and comment are totally different. So when people comment, don't say they are judging you. ( btw, you are lucky if there is someone willing to comment you, that helps to improve ourselves ). So just listen and analyse whether it is worth listening. If not, then just forget about it. It doesn't cost a cent to listen to people's opinion. 

Back to the topic. They have their own personal life, so just don't try to cross the line and don't interfere their personal life. 

I won't judge you if you tell me your deepest and darkest secret! [ Gossip girl ] have a lot of fantastic lines like " WITH FRIENDS LIKE THESE, WHO NEEDS ARMIES? ". Do you understand this line. Well basically it means the friends are always there for you to help you. I think that is what it meant. So friends don't judge, they help friends and be there for them all the time. So I do hope everyone I know is the greatest friends on earth! Maybe sometimes, we don't agree on things, but friends will always understand. Now do you understand the true value of friendship!

In this huge and dirty and ... society, we will meet all sorts of people everyday. Just be prepared to defend yourself. Ignoring them is to protect yourself. Don't mix with them is to prevent ourselves from getting into trouble. People may think that these actions are very arrogant but No. That is why think before you give comments. And don't judge. 

Thursday, April 2, 2009

I was not selected! T.T

Although your extra-curricular activities and qualifications are remarkable, the competition has been very keen and we regret to inform you that you have not been shortlisted for the scholarship interview. 

Once again, we thank you for your time and effort and we wish you every 
success in your future academic endeavours. 


I just received this email from sime darby! So sad. 
I just can't take rejection this way. Without any explanation! So disappointed.
Hopefully I get the JPA scholarship. I just can't take a NO for an answer!
This few days was a roller-coaster ride for me. I took my JPJ test on the 31st of March, then I had my interview on the 1st of April. I know it's April fool.
Went to Perlis to have my interview, I was so nervous at first, but when heard from my friends who had the interview earlier than me said that it was a very casual discussion. I won't go into details in this section. Because I just don't want to mention about it anymore. 
It wasn't too bad and it also wasn't great. Just normal. There were some bad moments during the interview so... I'm not going to talk about it.
Hopefully I will get the JPA scholarship.
GOD, please help me!
Btw, I was quite happy in the mean time, because I got a pressie from mom [ nike ] ! haha