To be frank

Decided to go to kmp[kolej matrikulasi perlis]. But when I first step on to the field of kmp, where my dad parked his car, I still felt unsure whether this is the right choice or right path for me. Some of my friends were very happy to come to here. But I am the opposite.

I always hope that I can have a better future. I always wanted to go to overseas to further my studies but the only way to do that is to get a scholarship from psd! But I didn't get it. I have one question, I wonder how the psd runs the selection process. I am not complaining but is just that I am curious about this whole scholarship thing. What are the criteria to get it. Am I not up to the standard to get it.

So, now I am still thinking about the same old question, is this the right path for me! I am so vexed right now.

18 years old and I already feel the tension of making a decision. What about in the future. I feel so vexed because I always think of others before me, this is how I think. I'm scared! Am I being selfish? Or this is the way it should be! Always think of yourself first! I know this is my future but I also know that my decision will affect others future!

To be frank, I really want to be selfish for once in my life! But how will the others think of me. I always care how others will think about me. Is this wrong? People will say "don't care about how others might think about you". I understand that I can't control what people think. So now I will try to ignore them. I don't care whether will they judge me or not!

I don't judge so please don't judge me if you are not me!

You don't understand how I feel and the circumstances that I need to consider.

Come back for a few days!

Went to HARI ANUGERAH CEMERLANG to get my prize!!! 

I came back le and still thinking is this what I want! I know this save a lot of money but...

haiz!!! Can anyone help

Is this the right choice!

Went to matric and still wondering is it the right path for me! I am not that happy going there! Haiz! So many stranger...

Won't be blogging so often now!

Can anyone tell me is this the right choice for me?

Sad

VERY VERY SAD! ALL THE HARD WORK... WHAT I HAVE PLANNED IS RUINED. DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW. BLANK......... ALL THE PLANS... RUINED... RUINED... FELT LIKE THE WORLD IS SPINNING BUT I AM STANDING HERE STATIONARY! 

CRYING...

...Continue...

1st of May

Went to my cousin house in Puchong to take all the things to put in the house. Using the mpv to bring all the things over. Later lunch at 3.00p.m.. So many things to arrange. So late to have dinner. Dinner at Equine Park. Hakka food for dinner.

2nd of May

Haha. We purposely went to Klang to try the famous Bak Kut Teh. Wahaha. Initially is a very good idea. But... (continue reading...) The Bak Kut Teh is so famous and many people went there. After brunch, went to the indian shop opposite to buy some joss stick. My uncle said that the smell is very nice wor! On the way back, we went to Sunway Pyramid to do some shopping. We walk and walk then only I went to shop for some clothes. Bought a few. Happy. 4 p.m., and we went home. Before reaching our house, we saw the pan mee shop and said wanted to try! So I ordered the Spicy pan mee. Then we went home. Later my cousin came and went to look for a washing machine. But didn't manage to buy yet. Later went for dinner at a nearby shop. Previously the shop was beside the main road and now it had move to the other row of shops. After dinner, I didn't feel very good! Sore throat. Didn't drink much water the whole day and so many heaty food in one day! Haiz. Bad idea for having the pan mee! 

3rd of May

Still not feeling well. But already booked to have a buffet at starhill. So we went to Puchong to meet up with my cousins. Then we went to starhill in two different cars. I still manage to eat the good food. I just choose not to eat the curry and barbeque type food. Didn't took photo of the main course. Only manage to take photo during the end of the buffet!

oyster!!!

seafood in hotbowl (not the real name!)

me and cousin

Haagen Dazs ice cream

Tiramisu

4th of May

Going to University of Nottingham to take a look of the surrounding. Very nice uni. Nice place to study. Far from city. Good!!! Then the people there, hmm... got people from Africa... Woo... I also met one student from Sarawak tim... Sarawak got Curtin University of Technology and he still wanted to come here. He said here is better wor... Hmm...

Then we went back to Alor Star. But we had to go round KL. We went all the way to Klang from Semenyih. Why? Because we miss an exit. Had to go all the way up. And my uncle insisted to go that way. So...

We also got stop by Ipoh to visit my another aunty. 

Reach Alor Star in 6 something...

That is all for the trip!

Penang and KL Trip

28th of April
Started the whole trip at Shahab Perdana. Went there with jk and zq. Actually we planned to go there with more people but they couldn't come! Took the 8.00a.m. bus and reach Butterworth jetty at 10.00a.m.. Oh! We met one junior in the bus and also going to Penang too, with his mom. He is currently in form 5. It was Tuesday which is a school day...

Then we took the ferry to the Island. RM1.20 per person. When reach Penang, we took rapid penang to Burma road to our hotel. We didnt book but already decided to go there because it is famous and cheap! "There it is, the big red building." Yup, Tune Hotel! We went to the lobby and book a room. Cost us RM60.  If you need any toiletries, pay another extra RM5 and deposit RM10. Deposit of RM5 for the key card! 

The beds

The view

Toilet door!

The room was good! The bed was fine, and the shower was great! Overall, it was a good hotel for its class! The check-in time is 2 p.m. but we still have 3 more hours! So we went to have our lunch first or maybe brunch because jk didnt eat anything, only had a cup of milo for breakfast! New World Park is just beside the hotel. Nice location! The food was cheap and very very nice! Love it! (I didnt take many pics cause didnt bring camera and my phone cam was not that good) 

Then we went to PTPL college, zq wanted to get the application forms. We walked there and it was far! After that, we still have time. So we went to Gurney Plaza. We walked there too. Quite far too! So when reach the plaza we went for a movie because when the movie end, it would be the right time to check-in. K-20 was a nice japanese movie.

We went back to hotel by taxi! Of course la! We didn't want to walk le. Later, sj who is studying in Penang went to meet us. 

Fast forward to dinner time! 

Bak Kut Teh! (It was ok la)

After dinner we went to Gurney again. This time is shopping time! But didn't manage to buy anything.

Went to arcade. zq and jk played this thingy. 

Fast forward again to the next day!

Woke up at 7.00 a.m., then I bathed first! After that I went back to sleep pula! HAHA! We check-out at 10.00a.m.. Then sj and friends came to fetch us to Prangin Mall. From there, we took a rapid to Queensbay Mall. Went to buy movie tickets for X-men. After buying the tickets, we went for our brunch at sushi king. And I forgot to take the pics from jk's phone. After that we jalan-jalan till 2.45. Went to the cinema. It was a very very very nice movie!  Love it too! 

Then we bought Roti boy, then we went to the bus stop to wait for the bus. While waiting, I bought a cup of soya bean milk. Waited for so long then only have a bus to jetty! So we took the ferry to Butterworth and since my dad went to visit his uncle who was admitted to a hospital, so he went to the jetty to fetch us back to A/S. 

9.30 p.m., Alor Star

After we had sent my friends back to their home, we went to fetch my sis back from tuition. Then bought dinner at Jalan Putra. Reach home at 10.30 p.m., had my dinner and packed my bags for the KL trip. Went to bed.

30th of April

My cousin wanted to move out from his room that he is renting and stay at the Serdang house! So my dad and his dad which is my uncle decided to go to KL to help him to tidy up the house and settle everything to let him stay there. 

First, dad and I went to my uncle house first, then we left our car there so that my aunty got a car to use. My uncle drive all the way up to KL by himself. Before we hit the road, we went for breakfast at bb park famous wan ton mee! We had lunch in Bidor and then we reach Serdang at 4p.m.(forgot the exact time). Then we had to mop the floor and wash this and that before we could stay in the house. After all the hard work, uncle said he want to go round to place to familiarise the place. So, we went to Equine Park then we waited my cousin but he couldn't be there at that time, so we went home to wait for him. Finally, he came then we went out to have dinner at Sri Petaling. 

1st of May

to be continue...