Being Religious

Now is the seventh month of the lunar calendar and here is an event going on at the basketball and tennis courtjust opposite my house. They are having a dinner at the tennis court and surprisingly there are no hot showgirls singing and dancing. Instead, all the aunties and uncles are performing on stage singing all the old tunes. I am not feeling very well right now, so I went to bed early but something is bothering me and I couldn't go to sleep.

I thought of my mom's praying beads, mantras, karma and all sort of things. Be more religious is what I thought about.

I got to know more about Buddhism when I was in foundation doing my Moral Studies. I found out that Buddhism is a teaching which I never follow and yet when I fill in forms at the religion section as Buddhist. My friend also told me about the mantra " Om mani padme hum" which I never heard of. This shows how unreligious I was.

Now, I want a change. I ask my mom to show me her praying beads. I want to pray more, do more good deeds, accumulate more merits, hoping to have a better life for my family.

I have no idea what I was thinking, maybe because I am sick and not thinking straight, but that was how I felt just now.