Being Religious

Now is the seventh month of the lunar calendar and here is an event going on at the basketball and tennis courtjust opposite my house. They are having a dinner at the tennis court and surprisingly there are no hot showgirls singing and dancing. Instead, all the aunties and uncles are performing on stage singing all the old tunes. I am not feeling very well right now, so I went to bed early but something is bothering me and I couldn't go to sleep.

I thought of my mom's praying beads, mantras, karma and all sort of things. Be more religious is what I thought about.

I got to know more about Buddhism when I was in foundation doing my Moral Studies. I found out that Buddhism is a teaching which I never follow and yet when I fill in forms at the religion section as Buddhist. My friend also told me about the mantra " Om mani padme hum" which I never heard of. This shows how unreligious I was.

Now, I want a change. I ask my mom to show me her praying beads. I want to pray more, do more good deeds, accumulate more merits, hoping to have a better life for my family.

I have no idea what I was thinking, maybe because I am sick and not thinking straight, but that was how I felt just now.

Not a cross road to me anymore.

On Thursday, my lecturer told that it is time for us to choose our optional module for semester 2. Everyone was like what... So fast arr...

To be frank, I was not suprise. Lecturer already told this since semester 0. Btw, now is semester 1. I already know what I want to be and so the modules that I need to take is very clear. I am focus, although my chemistry is not as good as my other modules such as maths and IT and Design. But I will make sure I will do better in "Chemistry B". I want to be a successful engineer, I always want to do something back to the nature. I want to discover more green energy...

I hope my dream can come true and things can turn out to be like what I had planned.